Why is the moon so lonely....Oooh shiny....

Haven't been updating for so longggggggg, think it's because i have no time or perhaps i have so much to post about but i really have no idea where to start from.

Anyway i caught the movie X Men Origins: Wolverine last thursday after my spore tax exams together with sarah, sha and rad in the afternoon.I thought the plot was kind of exciting, quite surprising and it's nice for a change. Afterthat, we went to john lil and i got a levis short :) Oh yah and now i am john little membership. what rubbish!

I'm having my hols now and i have to just concentrate on work for now till the next semester commences.

What's my plan now during the hols? I have to read up my company law text so that i can churn out the answers for all the queries of connie loh. I feel lousy when i have to ask my seniors. Read up all info in ACRA website and all relevant websites. I want to be able to own the problem and being able to demonstrate to them that i can do it.

Well, that's me and my corp sec work. I hoped mummy will get better soon. i'm a worried about her health. April was a roller roaster month for me. Mum was hospitalised and at the same time, here i am trying to focus on my revision.

I know life seriously sucks, but guess i should feel lucky.....

Listen to this song from enrique and ciara and i dedicate this song to YOU!

Music Videos - Video Playlists - New Music

No one, no one, no one

EXAMS OVER...waiting patiently for the results and hopefully i will pass all subjects!!!!...well...alicia keys is so awesome but did anyone realize that her voice is becoming raspier? anyway i LOVE THIS SONG...Great song! I loved it the first time I heard it, and normally songs have to grow on me. It's very passionate and explains how others cant understand the love between two people sometimes, which is so true...i am starting on my piano lesson again...

Peace of Mind

I'm starting school tmr!I'm so excited :) I have no plans today. I just feel like crusing and pampering myself before I start schooling tmr and well, I thought of blogging this morning when i woke up.

Today after my morning prayers,thoughts racing fast through my mind. Its stressful!I'm left with a few more hours before I start schooling. I need to get up on my feet and move on. I HAVE TO DO IT!

All of us live in a very stressful world. And the child within us is often afraid. Yet, despite what is going on in our lives,it is possible to find the place within that is powerful and loving and knows there is nothing to fear.

Majority of us hear only the voice of doom and gloom.The negative character in our minds pulls us down and makes us vulnerable. It makes us want to control everyone and everything around us. The voice within us, on the other hand, can soothe our fears by letting us know that we are safe and that we can handle anything that happened to us in life.

I'm just writing this entry to tell all that at times we need to read, write or hear comforting words. Reading them daily or again and again, will ultimately replace the negative thoughts in our mind. We doesn't have to believe on those words for them to have a powerful effect. Just read it over and over gain and they will automatically in our mind and hopefully, all of us will find ourselves moving into a more peaceful state of mind. I've tried it and I made it. I am ready for tomorrow ;)

MY COMFORTING WORDS:
"I now close the door to the past, I trust that whatever has happened in my life is a teaching for my highest good, despite how it might appear. I let go of trying to control the outcome of all situation in my life. I trust that I am learning and growing from all life experiences.I leave the dark and move forward into the flow of love and light.I am guided every step of the way. I relax.I am safe."

I let go and I trust!I let go and I trust!I let go and I trust!

Perfect Love, Imperfect Relationship

A night full of talking that hurts,
My worst held-back secrets;
Everything has to do with loving and not loving.

-RUMI

It's been so long that I've last logged in to my blog. I thought of re-designing the entire blog but I really had no idea.I'm really worned out!Actually,many things had happened that I cant even stop to catch my own breath.I cant wait for school to reopen.I miss all my beloved frens.

Basically, my holiday is well-spent doing enriching and meaningful things.I have to admit that I've been reading so many books.Only by reading, I could keep my mind busy all the time, absorbing newer information so that I dont have to think so much about what had happened and also to make myself more knowleadgeable.I dont know what I should write but I just love the book that I was reading "Healing The Wound Of The Heart". I am not sure why I've choosen the book but my instinct told me that its a good book written by a brillant author.And it proven me right :) Hookay, allow me to share, hopefully it will benefit you and me.

The book begins by showing how all our relational problems arise that core wounding around love that affects not only our personal relationship but the quality of life in our world as a whole. This wound show up as a pervasive mood of unlove- a deep sense that we not lovable just as we are. And this shuts down our capacity to trust, so that even though we may hunger for love, we have difficulty opening it and letting it circulate freely through us.

The words "I LOVE YOU," spoken in moments of genuine appreciation, wonder or caring, arise from something perfectly pure within us. I would define love very simply: openess and warmth, which allow me to make real contact with the person whom I love and taking delight by appreciating him in my life.

Such moments of pure openheartedness bring us as close to natural perfection as we can come in this life. So right alongside the truth of love's perfection, there stands another, more difficult truth - the flawed, tangled of human relationship which gives rise to tremendous sorrow and frustration. One minute you're touch with the love in your heart - you feel open, caring and connected. And then the next minute, before you know it, you and your loved one have embroiled in a conflict or misuderstandings that lead to shutting down or behaving in a cruel, heartless manner.

Thus,even when our love is genuine and real, something seems to block its full and perfect expression in relationships."I love you, but I cant't live with you" or "My heart has stopped loving you" is the classic statement of this painful gap between the pure love in our heart and the difficult realtionhsip that many of us inhabit.This must be solved or torn to bits.

Eventhough love forever arises anew, many walk around feeling deprived of it, And while love brings tremendous joy, our love life often brings greatest suffering.Even though there is nothing as simple and straightforward as the warmth of the heart, still, for one human being to love another, this is the most dfficult of all their tasks. The sense of loneliness afflicting many lives is not because love is in short supply. As for you, can find love everywhere.As a partime sales assistant, every smile I make and most of the conversation and glances I exchange with people I encounter every day contain at least a grain of love, in the form of interest, appreciation, consideration, warmth or kindness. Add up all the interchanges I had, I've seen that my life is sustained by a flow of interconnectedness, which is the play of love at work.Again, it is how you want to see things. But I hope that many would see things that bring real meaning and contentment to their lives in a long run. So stop feeling belittle or sabotage whatever love is there.YOU need to feel appreciated to what God has lend it to you.As He will take it back if you dont know how to feel appreciated.

Whoever you are and where you come from,every soul in this entire world need to love and be loved.And I want to marry the man that truely love me and most importantly, I love him all my heart.

Complicated

Sat up in the dark for so long
Just livin' my life on my own then
Right up out of the blue
Bumped into u
I was so amused
By your smile boo
Want you to call my phone
So me u can talk just a lil' more
I didn't know what to do i was feelin' u
Hopin' u would be cool of hangin' out to

I don't know what happened
Got people steady askin
How u go to sleep mad one day
The next wake up so happy?
Love works like magic
And a soul to my mind came graspin'
I'm just glad that i've got u in my life

[CHORUS]
I think bout us (all the day)
Dream about ya (always)
Love aint always
Com-pli-cat-ed [2x]

Im lovin it don't take long
People speculating that it wont last long
But that just can't be true
Cause i've been lovin' u
Like u never knew that i could do
I will never let go gotta hold on
Cause u den made me and
Your happy home
And i give all me to u, i do
Whatever u ask me too

Cause boy you're my
Biggest blessin
They can keep on askin'
How i go to sleep mad one day
The next wake up so happy?
Well love works like magic
And a soul to my mind came graspin
I'm so glad that u made me your wife back

[CHORUS X2]
I think bout us (all the day)
Dream about ya (always)
Love aint always
Com-pli-cat-ed

[Bridge]
Boy u make me feel so beautiful
And i ain't never gonna let u go
People say, they say how it's supposed to go
But i refuse to believe
Cause it happened to me

One day u're
Standin' in the middle of the road
And u don't know where ur goin'
All of the sudden your whole life change
And life finally gives u somethin' back
It's been a mean world without ya
Boy i love ya, i love ya

[CHORUS]
I think bout us (all the day)
Dream about ya (always)
Love aint always
Com-pli-cat-ed [2x]

Our lives are all different and yet the same.

Sometimes I wonder what is happiness? The real definition to happiness? Nobody can define it. I’ve learnt that not all come with an answer, some are left unexplained. Whatever it is, its proven that wealth and poverty does not bring happiness to one life.

To me, finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run.

At times, I doubt myself but I guess it is normal, when nothing feels good and you getting no where but what is important not to look back at one incident or factor in isolation and pinpoint as the cause of failure or unhappiness.

No matter how difficult the challenge, I believe that when we spread our wings of faith and allow the winds of God's spirit to lift us, no obstacle is too great to overcome.

I'm worn out! Love is not a maybe thing

It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is YOU that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.

At this time you need to be needed and again you need to need. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things arent quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

There is a suppressed anxiety which may be the result of an unsatisfactory or discordant personal relationship. This has led or is leading to unwarranted excess stress and tension. You are angry, uptight and feeling the physical effects of this anxiety. It is essential that you calm down, your physical well-being could be in jeopardy. It would seem that most of your stress is a result of an unsatisfactory relationship. You have tried, or are considering the possibility of trying to restore the love and trust situation,but so far,perhaps to no avail. So the situation is regarded as depressing and this unhappy state continues to aggravate the situation to a point of complete helplessness.

You feel utterly wretched. The demands that other people have been making on you have depleted your strength and stamina. You feel powerless to try to remedy the situation on your own and you are looking for what is hopefully known as divine intervention. But be assured your salvation lies in yourself, you have the ability so use it.